"Indecision"

you say no one should die alone
but if i do would i place
my faith in the hands of your gods
and would i test out the odds
of a savior who died for my sins

or would i pass away
silently
would i take it all in
unravel engrossed in this mystery
savor these last breaths to breathe

yeah, you think that you know
and that's the reason you don't
because a hand on the wheel
feels like one on your throat
these were boundaries
are you willing to cross

am i gonna reconnect
with all my loved ones that are dead
or come to realize this was all in my head
was it all just emotion
and does it burn out today
and was the fact that i've lived
without laws or a script
just the strength of my will
or the most mortal of sins
and did i break down the walls
or shut all these doors
in the last of my moments
would i admit to my flaws
these were boundaries
are you willing to cross

yeah, you think that you know
and that's the reason you don't
because a hand on the wheel
feels like one on your throat
yeah, you think that you know
and that's the reason you don't
because a hand on the wheel
feels like one on your throat
these were boundaries
are you ready to cross

this is my last
will and testament
whether human or heaven-sent

(The following is a Chinese translation/interpretation of "Indecision" by Luyao Zhang.)

踟蹰

你说无人应该孤独死去
但如果这样
我将把我的信仰放在我主手心
我将见证
为我罪而死的救世主是否真实存在
我是否会安静的死去
我是否会吸收全部
在这未知中专注地消散
品尝最后呼吸

啊,你以为你明白
其实这才是无知的根源
命运之手好像卡在你咽喉
你是否愿意
跨越这些屏障

我是否能与死去的爱人重聚
抑或这都是我的执念
还是都是感情做崇
而今日将全部熄灭
是否我从未按照教条而活
只靠意志的力量
也许这正是不可饶恕的罪
我是否打破那些条框
还是反而将自己封闭束缚
在生命尽头是否坦诚接受缺陷
你是否愿意
跨越这屏障

啊,你认为你了解
其实这才是无知的根源
命运之手好像卡在你咽喉
你是否愿意
跨越这些屏障
这是我最后的想法